振作啊，为什么你还是一副无所谓的样子，那么多的教训还不够让你清醒一点看到这世界的残酷吗？

我无时无刻还是会想到那个人。有着悠悠的恨，还有无奈。无法真的恨，但是我或许需要一些恨，才能够让我有足够的motivation去努力，努力不让人小看。

一周五天班我实在没太多精力在晚上继续想设计和修补过去的project，周末也是全部都利用上了。

今天在家做运动。portfolio要努力，我的身体也不能放任，写了一大条标题“绝不能输给他！” 对着标题硬生生地逼自己做了一个小时。真的，这辈子我也不愿再见到他，即使见到，我也绝不能让他小看了。

嗯！真的，所有事情都得积极，都得靠自己。脸皮厚一点，please！即使这工作不是你想要的，但也得好好做，好好学，当作是一个有薪水的学习机会，why not？比外面没薪水的intern不知道好多少倍了！

现在的忍耐是为了走更远更宽广的路！让我有恨吧，恨也是很好的动力！

1. 原本的房子结构需要不强，建筑师设计了一排排紧密贴在一起的sliding shelf 来放漫画。一来解决了storage不够的问题，而来解决了结构缺陷。（店面两边的ceiling和floor都设置相对应的木滑道；shelf下部装置了木炭防潮）
2. 玄关设置了折叠式小椅子，方便行动不便的老爷爷。另外，living room旁有一小阳台，设计折叠式overhang桌子和椅子。（好像没有支撑，不知道如何能做到结构上的稳固？？）
3. 设计L shape working table 给老奶奶，既方便照看店面，也可以在一旁装订漫画。
4. 小阳台的围栏可以拉起翻向屋内形成晾衣架
5. 同一空间内包含厨房，饭厅和卧室-无障碍空间。

• 榻榻米组合式床由4个木箱组成，木箱盖子可打开收纳。木箱由U-shape 五金扣住。
• 饭桌可以从底下拉开形成非常长的桌子，几个v-shape桌面存放在榻榻米木箱内，需要时取出。木箱拉过去就变成了椅子。

天啊，太神了！！！！

无限感动中……

If your life feels like it is lacking the power that you want and the motivation that you need, sometimes all you have to do is shift your point of view.

    如果你觉得心有余力不足，觉得缺乏前进的动力，有时候你只需要改变思维的角度。

By training your thoughts to concentrate on the bright side of things, you are more likely to have the incentive to follow through on your goals. You are less likely to be held back by negative ideas that might limit your performance.

    试着训练自己的思想朝好的一面看，这样你就会汲取实现目标的动力，而不会因为消极沉沦停滞不前。

Your life can be enhanced, and your happiness enriched, when you choose to change your perspective. Don’t leave your future to chance, or wait for things to get better mysteriously on their own. You must go in the direction of your hopes and aspirations. Begin to build your confidence, and work through problems rather than avoid them. Remember that power is not necessarily control over situations, but the ability to deal with whatever comes your way.

   一旦变换看问题的角度，你的生活会豁然开朗，幸福快乐会接踵而来。别交出掌握命运的主动权，也别指望局面会不可思议地好转。你必须与内心希望与热情步调一致。建立自信，敢于与困难短兵相接，而非绕道而行。记住，力量不是驾驭局势的法宝，无坚不摧的能力才是最重要的。

Always believe that good things are possible, and remember that mistakes can be lessons that lead to discoveries. Take your fear and transform it into trust; learn to rise above anxiety and doubt. Turn your “worry hours” into “productive hours”. Take the energy that you have wasted and direct it toward every worthwhile effort that you can be involved in.

请坚信，美好的降临并非不可能，失误也许是成功的前奏。将惶恐化作信任，学会超越担忧和疑虑。让“诚惶诚恐”的时光变得“富有成效”。不要挥霍浪费精力，将它投到有意义的事情中去。

You will see beautiful things happen when you allow yourself to experience the joys of life. You will find happiness when you adopt positive thinking into your daily routine and make it an important part of your world.

    当你下意识品尝生命的欢愉时，美好就会出现。当你积极地看待生活，并以此作为你的日常准则时，你就会找到快乐的真谛。

这两天又看了一次TVB的《谈情说案》，虽然觉得男主角的形象略嫌做作，但却很欣赏女主角的敢爱敢恨和天真善良。半夜看到他们惨烈的分手，看着女主角的肝肠寸断，居然也在嚎啕大哭中睡去。那些情景把自己过去的伤痕又一次不经意地撕开，原来发觉它还没有完完全全地愈合。

Why girls are always so sentimental and guys are acting almost cruel rational? TV is still TV, it is still too much fairy tale and happy endings.

Why I am always so sentimental? The adult world seem not built for ppl with too much emotion and feeling.

No time for sentimental now and time to go back to the cruel rational world!

I should build a mature and rational capsule for my body then I have my right to being sentimental secretly.

这个case讲的是72岁的小hair salon老板娘想退休交棒给单亲妈妈的女儿。女儿需要边开店边看顾还只是小学的孙女，因此三代都希望能把旧宅改造得更方便更舒适。

和之前的cases一样，建筑师还是把房子拆得只剩框架，结果发现旧房子墙面既漏水，铁支柱还被之前的地震给震歪了。所以一开始当然是insulation和加固steel structure。

原始第一层hair salon的interior如下：

旧interior如上，waiting area大得有点浪费，屋主要求把停车位增添到两个，另外需要专门是residential 的 entrance。

Home Makeover有些还算不错，有些interior类型的还挺俗气的，一味追求luxury的装饰和硬套的颜色配搭。即使感觉不错的那些多看几个也觉得有点乏善可陈，毫无特色。

House Hunter我也只对international的有兴趣。美国的房子老实说，真的挺无趣的，来来去去都是大致的格局。反观世界各地其他国家，尤其是欧洲，每有惊喜。欧洲房子大都经过不少岁月的风霜，室内室外都充满中古工匠的detail。美国人似乎只求眼前安逸却不太懂得保留。

很惊喜地发现了日本地节目《超级全能住宅改造王》，相比之下，HGTV的节目完全都是业余。《超级全能住宅改造王》里的建筑师简直就是艺术家和贴心的工匠。每一集都改造一个房子，先是查找当时的中古屋出现的问题，对屋主造成的不便，再根据屋主的愿望和他们的预算，重新打造出一所人性化的房子。虽然这种makeover有点彻底。目前看了两集，两集的建筑师都把房子拆得剩下结构，然后重新改头换面。很怀疑在美国是否可行，即使可行也应该是天文数字的花费。

昨天晚上看得很激动，欲罢不能。多少有点迷恋真正的建筑师，呵呵！日本的建筑还有landscap一直都是我经常参考的资料，还有他们很amazing的木结构。是不是因为他们生活在豆腐块般小的土地上才迫使建筑师们绞尽脑汁如何妥善合理地运用空间呢？

在线观看：全能住宅改造王

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I asked my Korean friend two days ago “Do I still love him?” She said certainly”No, of course not. That’s because you are lonely now…” Yea, maybe. The more time passes the more confuse I have.

The loneliness is true. All of us, the new graduate, are suffering the same loneliness at the moment. The worry, the uncertainty, the dilemma are filled in our every single day in life.

Where’s my faith?

I do not know why I am still miss him, all the time. I hope it is just my loneliness.

Hope someone can kick him out from my heart completely but I am not really in the mood for a new relationship, not yet.

等到我重新振作的那一天，重拾自信，更加热爱我自己的一天……

振作，振作……

Run away,

keep running away…

Running away from the reality,

floating in the darkness.

Stop! Stop!

You must stop!

Burn me, let me jump into the bonfire!

I spent the whole night yesterday to figure out a new sustainable software but what I got so far is not what I can proud of, at least not enough. I do got bunch of eco analysis which can thrill ppl a little bit. It is very hard to read those data and try to connect them with design. So I am taking a break and thinking if I should stop here and start my design again right away.

Anyway, cooling my brain down with peeling garlic, silly.

Bridget Jones, Bridget Jones…

Huge Grant was my favorite guy through out my middle school, lol But now I start to understand how to enjoy Colin Firth’s charming which is not about looking but reliable and secure.

Hmmm…England… Maybe I can try to send resume there in the near future. London is the best city in the world and the only one metropolitan I feel like to live and settle down. And, meet a British gentleman to fell in love, hahaha, dreaming…